Symmetry

I like lunch,
I like Wednesdays.
I like the uniformity of a space.
I like the singularity of a point.
I like math.
I like mountains with a perfectly pointed peak.
I like odd numbers dividing evenly.
I like “lol.”
I like stopping the stopwatch at 1 minute exact.
I like to think MLIA’s are real.
I like x’s.
I like the fact that space is curved in on itself.
I like this line.
I like the apparent normality of pi
Rather than the rationality of one-half.
I like the joy of trickiness.
I like thinking about the concept of being pricked by a true line.
I like talking to someone
talking to someone
talking to me.
I like people who are superficially superficial
I like subtle distinctions and implicit structure and underlying elements.
I like centers.
I like to think of a person’s soul as perfect infinitely thin spheres layered on top of each other.
I like to think the circle of life is a perfect circle.

I Will Not

I will not frown.
I will not leave.
I will not be shy
I will not seethe.
I will not listen to you lie.
I will not give up on you.
I will not take this stolen identity.
I will think about you twice.
I will not listen to your fairytale endings.
I will not show you my journal entries.
I will not
I will not give in to your stupid charm.
I will not sleep until your okay.
I will not tell your secrets.
I will not judge you.
I will not lose hope.
I will not stop.
I will not cheat or believe that you were capable of this and you never told me, and I will not understand why it had to end this way.

Break

I enjoy sleeping.
I enjoy rolling over in my bed.
I enjoy the lazy mornings.
I enjoy waking up and falling back asleep.
I enjoy knowing that I have another day.
I enjoy knowing the I'm free.
I enjoy going through my morning routine
without my usual hastiness.
I enjoy actually talking to my family over breakfast.
I enjoy calling my friends.
I enjoy having a good time.
I enjoy coming home late
much to the dismay of my parents.
I enjoy going to sleep
knowing that I have one more day.

Everything

I want the breeze in my hair-

I want the smell of snowflakes

tickling my nose.

I want sunshine.

I want violent winds and grey skies.

I want it all at once.

I want to live in the city with its flashing lights.

I want to see the countryside,

Breathe in new life.

I want to be a lawyer, a writer, a musician,

a chef, an artist, anything and everything.

I want to be famous or obscure,

I’m not that picky.

I want beauty.

I want love.

I want attention.

But all I really ever wanted

was to be left alone.

I want to be powerful and independent-

I want someone- anyone,

to take care of me.

I want to care more about this-

I want to stop caring at all.

I want to live life the way I planned,

held back only by my own whims.

I want to know what I really want.

- well…

I know what I really want.

I want it all.

I want everything-

Dangerously close to wanting

Absolutely nothing at all.

Hopeful

I hope for change.
I hope for positivity.
I hope to be hopeful.
I hope to dream.
I hope for stability.
I hope for happiness,
Not only for myself, but for everyone around me.
I hope for health.
I hope for wisdom.
I hope for a better understanding.
I hope for admiration.
I hope for success.
I hope for kindness.
I hope for honesty.
I hope for a helping hand.
I hope for a shoulder to lean on.
I hope for support when I need it the most,
And for a smile to share with somebody else.
I hope to find my way on my own,
So I have something to be proud of.
I hope to reach out.
I hope to make a difference, no matter how small.
I hope to stay a while, but not too long.
I hope to leave peacefully.
I hope to be surrounded by the people that I love,
And the people who love me.
I hope to be remembered.
I hope to be remembered for something great.
I hope I’m not the only one.

I hope for change.

I hope for positivity.

I hope to be hopeful.

I hope to dream.

I hope for stability.

I hope for happiness,

Not only for myself, but for everyone around me.

I hope for health.

I hope for wisdom.

I hope for a better understanding.

I hope for admiration.

I hope for success.

I hope for kindness.

I hope for honesty.

I hope for a helping hand.

I hope for a shoulder to lean on.

I hope for support when I need it the most,

And for a smile to share with somebody else.

I hope to find my way on my own,

So I have something to be proud of.

I hope to reach out.

I hope to make a difference, no matter how small.

I hope to stay a while, but not too long.

I hope to leave peacefully.

I hope to be surrounded by the people that I love,

And the people who love me.

I hope to be remembered.

I hope to be remembered for something great.

I hope I’m not the only one.

Standing - Clint Ko

I want pain.
I want a quick death.
I want the consolation of knowing
That today is the last day.
I want rotting bodies and carrion.
I want a hard ruler to come down on my soft hands.
I want the sunset.
I want to believe in existence,
And have it fade away upon the slightest touch.
I want brown, leather bags.
I want the pitter-patter of rain drops,
Like marching soldiers on rooftops.
I want chrysanthemums.
I want cold steel.I want hope,
Just to have it run down my cheeks like tears.
I want salt.
I want weathered books.
I want to stand,
Even while the ground is blown over
Like a pile of dead leaves.

Upon A Star - Rachel's List Poem

I wished upon a star.
I wished I could fly.
I wished I could read minds.
I wished money grew on trees.
I wished I knew all the answers,
the answers to life.
I wished I knew where to go,
who to know.
I wished I didn’t have homework.
I wished my grandpa wasn’t sick,
I wished I knew him better.
I wished I knew myself better.
I wished I knew who I was,
I wished it made no difference who I am.
I wished my dreams would come true.